In Loving Memory of our One & Only Mamita
Today is her 40th day.
Still painful everytime i think of her.
Naiiyak pa din ako. ๐ข
Our Mom.
She is Strict, Fierce, Strong, Loud, Scandalous, as everybody would say.
What you see is what you get! Many of all who knows her can tell!
Honestly, with all these words mentioned, she is our One Mama.
The strongest & bravest woman we know!
Yun ata ang di ko namana sa kanya, ang maging matapang!
2021 is the hardest, We can't be there for her because of the pandemic :(
and that makes us feel so helpless! (bat pa kasi ngayon.. ngayon pa.. bat ang soon naman...) Uuwi pa kami e.. di mo naman kami inintay ma ๐ญ
that Day before she said she want's to go to the hospital because she doesn't feel well,
From that moment we didn't thought that she will be there 'til her last breath. (Ang Saklap!)
We knew mama to be that brave in all, walang inuurungan. She'd been in two surgeries. Lahat yun nalampasan niya. Mama is a fighter!
May 31, That day she was confined in the hospital.
June 1, she tested COVID-Positive. Nag Pause kami that moment e! Totoo ba ito? Just almost a Month before, our dear uncle passed away.
Dami ko naiisip that time, but i am trying to be strong. Madami naman Covid-Survivor, at malakas ang Feeling ko Mama will be ONE too. At dahil nga kilala namin si Mama, as PALABAN! Yes! Literal na Palaban! Si Fely dun! Maisog! Unga ni Rizal! Owa it gina atrasan nga laban!
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Days after, Mama in ICU.
We keep praying. We pray really hard. "Give Mama another chance Papa God... Please"
After that Moment sunod-sunod na. Being not there, napakahirap! day by day..everytime our phone rings - comes a scary feeling!
3 days passed, naging okay naman.
Last phone conversation ko with her :
"Sabi ko pa.. kain na ma.. wala daw siya gana kasi.. kako nagpabili kami fruits sayo.. anjan na ba?..yan na lang muna kainin mo.. Before kami mag goodnight hinanap pa dalawang bata. We miss you Mamita.. Goodnight, Love You.. Miss You..."
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New day again.. Hoping this will be a better one.
that night....i didn't realize....
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June 10, She bid goodbye. ๐ญ
Paano nga ba?,......... di naman kasi madali tanggapin lang e. She will be Free from any pain, pero yung feeling na.. .... ang dami kong WHY's!!
Losing her.... this ONE! This is the most painful!
Pag-uwi namin soon the pandemic ends. Wala na siya! Wala na yung uuwi kami may gigising samin ! "Almusal na.." "Kain na.." "Anong gusto niyo.."
yung tipong everytime uwi mo tuwang tuwa ka kasi pagdating sa bahay wala ka na gagawin kasi may palaging handang pagkain. Ito yung Moment na .. di ka magluluto or kung anu man.. BAKASYON Mode sa bahay!
Mamimiss namin yung sigaw mo! Yung madalas galit pero Akala mo lang yun!
We will always Remember you. Mahal na mahal ka namin.
Makakasama mo na jan sa Heaven, sila Papa, Toto, Lola, Lolo, at Uncle's.
I know grieving takes time! but I myself don't know when to stop crying everytime remembering Her. Up to now! Still can't Accept that she's gone.
Writing this...Tears still keep falling.๐ญ
A Loss is a part of Everybody's life, it never make it any easier, often takes a lot on those left behind, Everyone of us grieves differently. Oftentimes, it feels like grief is never ending.
A healing process comes in different ways. We will start by remembering Mama's Happiest Moments. We will always remember her saying:
“Ignorance of the Law Excuses No One” ...na kahit anu pa excuse mo hindi pedeng hindi mo alam.. dapat alamin mo. Tatandaan niyo yan palagi. "
Thank you for everything Mama.
i Know it's going to be hard without you around..but... we will try..
Mahal na Mahal ka Namin Ma. ๐ข
Please Watch and Guide us from there Mama! 'Til we meet again. ๐ข
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Romans 14:8
If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.
Psalm 147:3
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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